Tuesday, November 18, 2008

It's My Blog and I'll Whine If I Want To


Hmmm been a while since I last wrote. And all postings had been put on halt due to crazy schedule and manic turn of events at work. Well now since I possess the will to write I shall tell you about the turn of event of my life at work last week.

As most of you would've already known, I was a SAHM previously until I decided to get back to work full time in March this year due to a too-good-to-resist offer as an Office Manager. I wish I could say it was to good due to its monetary factor, but no, I gave that up for the location (5 minutes drive from home) and portfolio (relatively less stress than my old portfolio in terms of travelling and work load). In my life before as a career woman I was the Head of Corporate Communications at a telecommunication company that is affiliated (a subsidiary actually) to the monopoly in terms of almost everything telecommunications in Malaysia. I can say that I am used to office politics, even I wasn't spared from directors' bereaucracy. What I will not get used to is petty and/or personal attacking colleagues/superiors and unprofessional work manner. This, my peeps, is the root cause to my whining. Those who can't take it, please proceed to the online stores in teh Interweb for your holiday shopping, you're better off doing that than complain later why I shouldn't whine. Like I said in my title post, it's my blog so go figure. Yes, I may be small and look nice, but I was also born with the ability to snap and bite.

I had my probation assessment done last week after a 2 month delay due to my direct superior's secondment to another company and getting a time together had been a challenge. Nevertheless the time was made anyway last Thursday. Before we went on formally my boss (hereinafter refered to as Person #1) actually pushed the papers aside and "talked". I sensed it was the kind of talk a guy gives his girlfriend before saying "We're not right for each other", only this wasn't that, nor was Person #1 firing me, but the kind that tells you to buck up for what's coming next. He was very professional through it all, and remained so till the end and I had no qualms whatsoever. But when he started telling me that prior to seeing me he consulted the second person in line (hereinafter refered to as Person #2) because of his being away for 3 months now and Person #2 supervising me in his absence was the moment my gut feelings were cemented. After the whole gammut of "How do you think you're doing here?", "How do you like working with the people here?", yada yada yada, Person #1 began this whole thing about him being different, how he knew what that felt like and that he didn't mean it in any bad way at all. Uh huh, I knew where he was getting at. Person #1 conveyed to me that he gathered from Person #2 that some people at the workplace expressed difficulty communicating with me because of my "socio-economy standing", my "personality" and my "background". These are not the people in the same company I work in rather those attached to our sister companies and under the same roof.

My whine #1: since when being different is bad?

Whine #2: so if other people can't communicate well with me, it's my fault???

Person #1 analogized me further with the owner cum Executive Chairman's daughter (who's also a staff). Now, this was a lady of extreme wealth and social standing, dresses designer from head to toe and carefree (at last that's what I think). In my heart of course I was flattered, come on, admit you like that too when you get it. But feling flattered and irritated over the same thing is crazy, no?

To that person/s who couldn't/can't communicate with me because of me: Fuck you! Fuck your twisted mind!

This being done, Person #2 joined us to commence the joint evaluation. A set of questions were run through, 1 to 5 points style, 5 being the highest. I hover between 3 and 5 in all categories. It got personal when Person #1 wanted to rate me 5 and Person #2 mentioned (with me there) she never got a 5 and she never gave a 5 (except for another friend of mine - of course I know, I'm the office manager! I handle all documents), and "Why should she get a 5?". S.H.I.T. Because I'm good, duhhhh. To strike a balance between them I looked on while box number 4 was checked. F.U.C.K.

Might I add that our evaluation form was a lousy one even Person #1 couldn't believe such a point system was still in use. Anyways, we sailed through and Person #1 tried the best to give me a high rating, and after 2 rounds of doing so I admitted to feeling indifferent when he asked.

Whine #3: why are you complaining now, surely you have seen this form before evaluating Person #2? She reports to you too. Aaaaah no, she got confirmed over talking over lunch downstairs.... (nope didn't make this one up, Person #2 merely answered when I asked.)

Whine #4: I am tired with myself already thinking why the hell wasn't I my usual inquisitive self during the assessment....



Person #2 apologized to me the next day and admitted she wasn't good at managerial matters. Chill dude. I'm professional. And I expect you to be one too.

Whine #5: you don't apologize after blatantly and intentionally bashing someone, especially after a work appraisal. GOSH!!



Person #2 requsted for new set of business cards early last week. I ordered 2 boxes. Today she tells me I have to design a new internal requisition form for purchases like this after I handed her the purchase order to sign. She says she might not want to order 2 boxes if she had known the price (she's ordered 2 sets before, each different than the last. 2 blocks for printing have been created for her. 1 box of card = RM35. 1 block = RM17. Hang on a minute, is she complaining over a 70 bucks worth of purchase that she instructed me to do???). Don't give me that condascending "Sometimes our memory doesn't serve us right" when you won't admit your state of mind. Do it like I do, ADMIT you're forgetful. I won't blame you for it because I know you're a busy woman.

Whine #6: why oh why did you ask me to create a monthly burn sheet if you don't check it?!?!

Whine #7: I might as well be the Admin Department and Human Resources Department on top of the Office Manager post I'm holding. Why do we want to duplicate and replicate this process when all she can do is ask the Admins for all the forms and estimations on earth when she needs to????


To the bitches and man-bitches in the company with communication defficiency syndrome, fuck yourselves! I don't have to like you to do my job and vice versa. I am there to work. Not make nice. If I dropped dead y'all still work, wontcha?? Save your hypocrite selves for someone else.

Now my take on how I look: "Don't hate me coz I'm beautiful!" MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!!


-h of candid cool said...

i hear you sister, sometimes we all need to vent and curse.
ugh work drama is no fun. do your best to stay out of "politics" i really try my best, but its annoying when people just spew gossip out of no where! even when i say, "why are you telling me this? i really dont want to know about their personal lives!!"

let your haters be your motivators!!

kruel said...

"Yes, I may be small and look nice, but I was also born with the ability to snap and bite." - Yes, that's why we called you 'singa'. A comment which takde kena mengena dgn ur topic though...

La Belette Rouge said...

Have the b-itches call me. I will happily give them my assessment of what crap supervisors they are and what significant issues they have and how things would be much better if they pulled their heads our of their asses.

Don't be hating on lovely Lynn because she is so fabulously lovely.

So sorry, dear. It is good to vent. And, it is better to be so fab you inspire envy. Love you much.I give you 10's on every category.

Lynn said...

H: No fun indeed, especially when you are made to hold a part in it when you're absolutely clueless. I'm no good with surprises and I'm definitely a lot more careful now.

Good advice, babe! Thanks, for reminding :) I've actually given it to a few of my friends already. Thank you, thank you!

Kruel: Yes, the word "Singa" is definitely me, but I'm the gentle lion, I only strike when I'm being poked mwahahahahaaa! A good blast from the past, Kruel!

Ruby: Thanks sweetie for your neverending kind words. I wish they would call you to hear from someone a lot smarter than they seem to be. It's no rocket science to separate non-related matters with work related ones, no?

It does feel good after I've spewed my frustration here, I realize I should do it more often, though cursing is always my last resort :). Hmmm, fab is such a big word to describe me, and to inspire envy is never intentional on my part. Well, I suppose it can always be turned around to the positive if the envious persons have a degree of self esteem. Maybe this is the melancholic me talking. And as always, I appreciate your vote of confidence. I'm grateful to have a friend in you. XOXOXOX.

Anonymous said...

Hi Lynn - very sorry to hear about the problem people at work! Hope things are improving. Best wishes for a happy and healthy 2009!